It Is Okay To Stumble
It Is Okay To Stumble
There is a thought in people’s mind that once they start out on the
spiritual path, they have to tread the straight and narrow. If they don’t, then
things could work out badly for them. This is the resistance that the mind
throws up to protect its own turf on control over the physical body. Where body
consciousness predominates the mind and the ego are in charge, they are in no
way going to let go of their control so easily.
The good news is that it is absolutely alright to be flawed. As the
saying goes, nobody is perfect, everyone has his/her own idiosyncrasies and
eccentricities. That is what makes each individual on this planet so unique.
Flaws and limitations are woven through our lives. We are all stumblers, and
the beauty and meaning of life are in the stumbling – in recognising the
stumbling and trying to maintain balance while we become more graceful as the
years go by.
The stumbler literally
stumbles through life, a little off balance here and there, sometimes lurching,
sometimes falling; but the stumbler is honest and faces one’s imperfect nature,
mistakes and weaknesses with completely unvarnished honesty. Such a person
feels ashamed of the perversities in his/her nature – the selfishness, the
self-deceit, the occasional desire to put lower-level loves above the higher
ones.
A panacea is that humility offers self-understanding. When we
acknowledge that we have screwed up, and recognise and feel the gravity of our
limitations, we find ourselves challenged and stretched with a serious enemy - our
ego - to overcome and transcend.
When the stumbler faces each fall with courage and overcomes them,
then he/she is made whole by the struggle. Each weakness becomes a battle to be
won and overcome and this gives meaning to life, a greater understanding of
life is the result, thus making one a better person. When we sit down to
meditate as a group, we lean on each other as we struggle to establish
ourselves in the spiritual sphere, the collective energy balances and
stabilises us.
There’s a joy in a life filled with interdependence with others, in
a life filled with gratitude, reverence and admiration. There’s joy in freely
chosen obedience to people, ideas and commitments greater than oneself. There’s
a kind of aesthetic joy that we feel in morally good action, which makes all
other joys seem insignificant and easy to forsake.
People do get better at living, at least if we are willing to
humble ourselves and learn. When we meditate and learn to live in awareness
this process gets automated. Thus, it is best to meditate and turn inwards – the
inner is far more beautiful than the outer.
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