Ego dies, Soul is Born

 

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Ego dies, Soul is Born

All spiritual seekers have at some point or the other felt the fear of ‘knowing themselves’. Why? Because there comes a point where we cross the boundary of the ego and enter into the world of egoless-ness. That point is the point of great fear — because it looks like death. And, in fact, it is a kind of death: the ego disappears.

And up to now, that has been our identity. Up to now, that’s what we have been thinking we are. And suddenly it starts evaporating. A great fear grips the heart: “I am dying!” because our identity is dying. We are not really dying; in fact, we are being born. It is a rebirth; it is a true birth. It is like the seed dying into the soil. The seed will not be there to witness it; no seed has ever witnessed it, so how can this seed believe and trust?

And the same happens with the ego: the ego cannot trust that there is anything more than itself. And the ego is dying, and the ego starts breathing its last, and we become afraid. Many people turn back from that point, rush back out. This happens to every meditator. We all reach a point where we feel suffocated, we feel that we are dying and cannot go any further. In a way it is death – death of the ego – but at the same time it is the birth of the soul.

We will die as a drop, but we will be born as the ocean. It is worth it. We will be dying only as a limited being, as a defined being, and we will be reborn as undefined, undefinable.

Yes, we will disappear, with all our neurosis, psychosis, with all our tensions, anxieties, anguishes: we will disappear with all our problems, worries; we will disappear as we have known ourselves up to now. But our disappearance is only a change of garments, and we will be getting closer to our reality, deeper into our individual reality. We will get more rooted into being, existing. That’s the whole search!

We should feel blessed that we are so close to the boundary from where a totally new world and a totally new life can have a start. Just one single step… and we will be new persons, and we will become original individuals. Just a single step, and all the garbage that the society has dumped on us will have dropped, and we will be just a pure consciousness. We will have wings! Now we are just crawling on the earth… and then we will be able to soar high towards the sun.

To be with a Master simply means to learn trust, to learn the art of risking, to learn the ways of adventuring into the unknown. The Master waits, the Master remains patient. He allows us to go back and forth, he goes on watching running away and coming back. But he knows one thing: that every day the outer will go on losing its significance more and more. One day it will be utterly useless, absurd, to be there. And as the outer loses significance, the inner will become more and more magnetic — simultaneously the process happens.

And one day it becomes irresistible — one has to cross the line. And that day is the greatest day in a human being’s life, when we drop our old identity and enter into the unknown — we have encountered God, we have come home.