Recognising Insincerity

 

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Recognising Insincerity

Just remaining with the feeling that we have been insincere, that’s enough. It is purifying, it has a tremendous capacity to purify and cleanse us. Just remain with the feeling that “I have been insincere’: that “I am insincere” - and don’t try to do anything about it. That is again trying to create a good image of the self: that we are not insincere, that we are sincere. Our ego is hurting because we have been insincere.

Try to be aware of the fact; don’t try to do anything about it. Anything that we do will be immature. It is too early. Just remain with the idea; live with it. Live with the idea that we are insincere. If we can live with it, the very idea, the very awareness, will kill our ego completely. The ego cannot remain alive if we think we are insincere. The ego needs a good image: that we are sincere - very honest. That’s what the ego is saying: “Do something so we can repaint the image, renovate the image.”

We have been insincere. This has been revealed to us through meditation. Now the ego is in danger of death. The ego says: do something. Through doing, it will try to again reclaim the fallen image, resettle with the old, so we can feel again that - “l am good, I am beautiful. I am sincere, I am moral, I am this and that.”

If we know that we are liars, the lying will stop of its own accord. If we feel we are immoral, don’t try to do anything: don’t repent, don’t feel guilty - those are tricks. Remain with the idea: the naked fact of who we are. Don’t move, don’t get occupied in doing something. Remain naked, with the naked idea, the naked reality, and we will see a change happening.

And when a change comes to us not by our doing, it comes from God. Only God can make us moral, sincere; only God can make us religious; only God can make us pure. It is PRASAD, it is His gift; we cannot do it. All our doing will be an undoing. We should keep reminding ourselves again and again that we are not to do anything.

Now meditation has broken a window into the falseness. We have been able to look into ourselves: the reality. We have come across a mirror. Now don’t try to escape from it, remain with the fact. Whosoever we are — that is our reality. Remain with the fact. If we can remain with the fact, we will change. But that change will not be our doing, it will happen.

When a transformation comes to us, it has a totally different grace. Whatsoever we do will always be tiny, mediocre and finally useless. Whatsoever God does to us is infinite. Only that can be infinite which comes from the infinite. Don’t try to do anything. Accept the fact, remain with it, relax, and suddenly there will come a transformation.

That is all we have to do on our part. Open the door, wait. Just open the door - that much we have to do. Allow… so that when He knocks at the door, we can welcome Him, when He comes, we can recognise Him, when He comes, we can call Him in. Just don’t sit with closed doors, that’s all. Meditation is nothing but that: opening the door.

Meditation will not give us enlightenment, remember. No technique can ever give us enlightenment; enlightenment is not technical. Meditation can only prepare the ground. meditation can only open the door. Meditation can only do something negatively; the positive will come. Once we are ready, it always comes. Just be.